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My mother says that getting through each day is an achievement. I want to believe her, but I cannot help comparing myself to how I was before the episode. The mornings are especially challenging. I have always been one to snooze my alarm clock for a few extra minutes of sleep, but nowadays waking up means facing a new day of uncertainties and insecurities.


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There seems to be a force keeping me from looking at the day as fresh and invigorating. The bounce in my step has disappeared.

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Many of my friends say that I am the same person, just a slower version. It is comforting that the world sees a similar me, yet aggravating because I do not feel like me. I am really more animated and enthusiastic. Right now, I feel dull and boring! I have been haunted by one thought which will not disappear. If not for this intrusive notion, I think I would almost be back to myself. I am consumed with the idea that the bridge will collapse and I will sink with my car and drown in the ocean.

I talk a lot about my obsession with the bridge falling, looking for reassurance, but it seems that verbalizing it makes me more anxious. The other night, a former boss of mine called about something. He had no idea what I was going through. I filled him in on what had been transpiring.

I got off the phone beaming. He was so understanding and encouraging.

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He knew just what to say. I am aching for more people like this in my life. I am searching for a support group. I sense that talking to people who are going through a similar experience will be comforting and soothing. I imagine that possibly I will even make some friends. Maybe this is being too optimistic. At least I have some hope left in me. I write to keep going, sometimes to get going. In the morning, when my day seems overwhelming, I go to my computer and write from wherever I am at that moment. I keep the page open the entire day and periodically check in with the time and what is going on at that instance; how I feel, what I am doing and what I can do.

Writing gives me an outlet for my thoughts and emotions. Instead of remaining trapped in my mind, with no place to go, I express myself on paper. It is basically a journal, although I do not save the page at the end of the day. My mom says that I should keep the entries, so that one day I can use them in a book. It is a good idea, though I think I will remember the events without a journal. But she is probably right. What a boost! I received an email asking me to teach in January. My self esteem went up a few notches. Even the bridge does not seem as ominous anymore. I imagine being all better, but the reality is that improving is a process which must take its time.

Silent Screams: They Said I Would Not Make It But Look At Me Now

The truth is that this is not the first time I had an episode. Last time, about five years ago, it was much worse and I did get back to myself, even better. There were many components to my recovery. One that stands out is that I got a job as soon as I was ready to get out there and work. Of course, the job was part time and flexible. The fact that my boss knew about my situation and was kind and compassionate helped enormously.

Another piece of my healing was medication and therapy. I was working with professional, empathic doctors, both a psychiatrist, as well as a cognitive behavioral therapist CBT. The psychiatrist prescribed and monitored my medication, and the CBT gave me tools to manage my depression and anxiety. The CBT helped me in very concrete ways. For example, when I started seeing my therapist, I was very fearful of riding the subway.


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Today, I actually enjoy being on the train. I find it relaxing and stress free. Imagine that, therapy really does work! One more factor in my recovery was exercise. Upon the recommendation of my doctor to do some sort of physical activity, I joined a gym. I cannot say it was easy to go.

My motivation to go was sometimes nil. Often, I dragged myself there because I knew it was beneficial for my mental health. It helped me live more in the moment, which made it easier for me to get through the day as evenly as possible.

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After some time of feeling the benefits, exercise became more part of my routine. The climb continues to be an arduous one with ups and downs. There are good moments and not so good instances. There are people who are supportive and others who do not understand. Sometimes there are flashes of my prior self and other times I wonder how I will ever be the same. Pep talks are a constant companion, both internally as well as from other people.

Feeling depressed and anxious has made me feel unsure of myself. It is an uphill battle with glimpses of successes. My mother says that getting through each day is an achievement.

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I want to believe her, but I cannot help comparing myself to how I was before the episode. The mornings are especially challenging. I have always been one to snooze my alarm clock for a few extra minutes of sleep, but nowadays waking up means facing a new day of uncertainties and insecurities. There seems to be a force keeping me from looking at the day as fresh and invigorating. The bounce in my step has disappeared. Many of my friends say that I am the same person, just a slower version.

It is comforting that the world sees a similar me, yet aggravating because I do not feel like me. I am really more animated and enthusiastic.

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Right now, I feel dull and boring! I have been haunted by one thought which will not disappear. If not for this intrusive notion, I think I would almost be back to myself. I am consumed with the idea that the bridge will collapse and I will sink with my car and drown in the ocean. I talk a lot about my obsession with the bridge falling, looking for reassurance, but it seems that verbalizing it makes me more anxious. The other night, a former boss of mine called about something. He had no idea what I was going through.

I filled him in on what had been transpiring. I got off the phone beaming.

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